If you've found my blog, most likely it is because of Pinterest. And I see you. You were looking for a way to soothe the lady bits after you gave birth. But I am about to give you SO much more than you were looking for...
After you've calmed and iced your vagina; slept in two hour increments for two straight years; attempted to potty train a child...quit and then restarted six months later; and had a moment where both you and your child ended up crying in Target, your babies will get bigger...
One day that precious baby boy that you stayed up all hours of the night soothing and pumping every droplet of breast milk you could muster, will tell you that he doesn't want to take a bath anymore. He wants to take a shower and shampoo his own hair. And then he wants to tie his own shoes. And then he will read you books and count coins to save up to buy Legos. He will be a little boy.
Your daughter will vow she is only taking showers too because that's what her brother is doing. And then she will tie her shoes and change her clothes because she doesn't like what you picked out. She will tell you secrets and try and braid your hair. She will swaddle her baby dolls and color pictures of sunshine and hearts. She will be a little girl.
They will grow up.
If you've read my blog at all you know that I am of two minds about this transition. I welcomed my children becoming more independent. Life started to feel normal to me again. However, I felt a little lost. I've worked part time a large part of my children's lives. In some sense I feel like a stay at home mom because I work evening hours. So I am a mom all day and two days a week I am a NICU nurse in the evening. This is my career, I love being a neonatal intensive care nurse.
As my kids began preschool and pre-K I found myself with time that I didn't have before. I felt lost.
I tried to fill this hole by deep cleaning my house and doing two loads of laundry every day. The more vacuumed my house was the more I expected to feel whole again.
That didn't work.
I tried to become a yoga enthusiast. I tried to follow the caravan of other moms from preschool drop-off to the fitness center where I suppose my only goal for morning was to tone up?
But I needed more. To be honest things were feeling pretty bleak. My planner pages were full of yoga schedules and cleaning checklists from Pinterest, play dates for my kids and school events.
I wanted more than a toned ass and a clean house. I wanted to have goals, real things to strive for. I wanted my personal tank to feel full.
And this is where things become muddled. These days people seem to think you need to be completely fulfilled by your children. Finding blissful happiness in filling other peoples' needs and being "mom."
That is complete bullshit.
Remember having children does not erase who you are or who you were. You are still the same person. You are allowed to have dreams and goals and seek to fill your tank outside of the little people that shot out your butt.
Trust me on this!
I wanted more, but I wanted to be extremely selfish about it. I didn't want to pick up more hours at work and miss out on time with my kids. I didn't want to miss out on anything! I just wanted something for myself.
I prayed. Honest to God in Heaven you guys. I prayed that I would find an answer. Something to pursue outside of perfect vacuum lines in my carpet.
(And this is where you guys have to give me a little grace, and trust me that I am not trying to be an annoying bitch. In about one paragraph it's going to seem like I'm being an annoying bitch. So I'm warning you now so that you are prepared. Reserve your judgement. Roll your eyes all you want, but for the LOVE OF PETE keep reading. Just trust me.)
I ran into one of my friends and she looked incredible. She didn't have the lines on her forehead that I had, she didn't have the sunspots that I had. She looked radiant. And I wanted that...obvi.
She told me she started using Rodan+Fields skincare.
And that is why I am sitting here writing this now. This was my answered prayer. These products changed my skin and this business changed by life. (Insert eye rolls. Go ahead, I understand.)
I can hear you now.
I TRUSTED THIS BITCH AND NOW SHE'S TRYING TO SELL ME SOMETHING!
Yes, I am.
I'm trying to sell you goals and dreams and aspirations. Without giving up anything. Without giving up time with your kids. Without giving up time with your significant other.
I didn't give up anything and I got so much more. I'm a mom. I'm a nurse. I'm a business woman.
I want this for you if you want it. I know what it feels like to need more. So that's why I decided to write this. This blog has always been about my journey in motherhood. It is by a parent, for other parents. More than anything I don't care if you aren't interested in Rodan+Fields, I encourage you to find something that fills you up. Find something that makes you feel like a complete person in yourself. This will be the best thing that you can do for your children.
If you are pregnant right now and wondering how you are going to pay for diapers; if you are like me and your kids are growing up and you feel lost; if you love skincare and want to be your own boss; if you just want to make money and be with your kids...
Please, please, please do yourself the biggest favor and email me. I am not pushy. I just want to help. I'm a great listener, I just might have something you want to hear about.
http://emilybudahn.myrandf.com (check out this link to look at products and make sure this is legit, and I'm not a psychopath.)
When you see that I'm not cray, email me and I can give you the scoop. I look forward to hearing from you.
firstname.lastname@example.org (Why don't you put Rodan+Fields in the subject line so it doesn't get deleted with all the penis enlargement pill websites)